I’ve wanted to post something beautiful recently, but I didn’t want to seem insensitive to the obvious distress our country is in. Whether or not your candidate won the election, it’s disheartening to see so much separation and fear mongering on our streets. It’s been hard for me to click on my Facebook app because I know scrolling will just send my eyes rolling (aha). Sometimes I wish I wouldn’t have seen the “true colors” that came out of some of my acquaintances – but I know that it would be naive for me to think everyone can handle their emotions under pressure and be empathetic to others around them. Even as adults, it’s really hard for people to do that. Some, whom might call themselves the most “open minded”, have disgustingly displayed the most hatred I’ve seen in years.
That being said, I hope that my friends and family (and Facebook viewers) can be convinced that I am not unaware of the pain and suffering that is out there. I hope they understand that this post is not to mask the hurt I see. I hope they understand that this is to break open the hope, joy, and wonder that still peaks through despite the foggy political air.
A few weeks ago we celebrated our daughter’s 1st birthday with family and friends. It was fantastic! We ate and talked and enjoyed our time together. When we opened gifts we sort of surprised our family with more news…
We’re pregnant! Yep. Again. I’m excited and scared and hungry again. Getting to hold a little life inside of me is one of the most beautiful things I have ever experienced and I so wanted to tell the world! It’s been hard to keep in the excitement.
Of course, I could take this time to mention how frightened I am to be raising kids in this United States. Honestly though, my joy exceeds the anxiety. There is still a lot of love out there, and I intend on showing my kids what it’s all about. After all, the best way to battle hatred is to pour out the love right?
I guess this post is more than a pregnancy announcement. It’s a statement. It’s a promise. It’s an online baby dedication. I want everyone to know that despite life’s hardships, I intend on raising my kids to be honest, patient, and kind. I’ll do my best to show them love and mercy, and teach them to do the same – even to those who we feel aren’t deserving of such. I hope to instill in them the goodness of listening before speaking, and putting others first. I know my husband feels the same way. God has shown me so much mercy in the last few years, and I undoubtedly need much work; but hopefully this will just show my kids that following Jesus is a lifelong choice and process. Becoming a mother has pushed that process for sure but I wont quit just because life is getting more and more complicated.
FYI – Morning sickness has taken over my life… that’s why I haven’t posted much or worked on my Etsy Store. I’m going to have to make some serious decisions on what to spend my time on now that we’re going to have 4 in the home! Pray for me, and I will pray for you.